. .my phone is goNe. .='(

. .my phone is gOne. .no it's not goNe. .nasira ko lang naman kasi. .without any reason. .ewan ko ba. .bakit bigla ko nalang xang nasira. .panu na yan. .two weeks without a phone??. .probably, i cant survive. .huhu. .kasi, everytime na walang ginagawa, i turn to my phone. .eh ngaun?. .panu na. .huhu. .

. .so near yet so far. .

. .aha. .he's way to near yet way too far. .he's just in front of me but it seems like he is super hundred miles away. .kind a ironic right?. .hehe. .anyway, at this very moment, im with kim. .hehe. .nothing to do. .

back to the topic. .

. .i can feel his presence yet it's not enough. .

. .but now, im starting to move on. .thanks to him. .my special friend. .it's him. .it's tOooOt!. .

. .jossa knows who is he. .haha

, ,till here. .

. .weeh. .(the flower activity!)

. .yesterday, september 26, 2007, we had an activity on our english subject. .we gave the special persons in our lives some flowers. .it was so enjoyable. .many gave me those flowers..namely, lae,jEan, Lea, dan, marjorie, and jeRemy. .i appreciated them. .i was not expecting that they will give me. .i was overwhelmed. .and after the flower giving activity, we had a message giving activity. .it was fun. .my notebook was now like a scrapbook. .filled with those message that came from my special friends. .i was very thankful then. .='). .thanks to them!!. .love yah all mga dude!

. .why?

. .why is it hard to forget you?. . hirap mOng kalimutan tol. .di ko na alam ang gagawin just to throw you out of my life. .xmpre, mahirap, look, since i entered that school kaya. .i'll just let time control this problem. .i know that time will heal this deep wound!. .=')

. .one is enough. .

. .a single drop of tear is enough. .it was enough to make my heart stop from swelling because of him. .it was enough to make this insanity stop. .and, it was enough to make him stop from hurting me. .it was enough. .i've reached the bottom line. .this insanity should stop at this very moment. .he and that girl. .they belong. .i am no one. .i am simply nothing. .ang saktan nea ako ay isa nang rason para tumigil na ang buong kalokohan na to. .pero teka nga, cno nga naman ako di ba?. .wala lang. .wala lang ako sa kania. .so, i better stop this whole thing and accept the fact that he and that girl, they belong. .and i cant do anything but to stop this whole thing. .i have to stop. .='q.

. .what a stoRy. .

. .something hmnnn. .something veri memorable happened today!. .it was a great experience. .but i have to let you wait until tomorrow okay. .hehe. .i have a lot of things to do. .all lined up and waiting for me. .so, bye for now!

. .ahh waLa. .sinO ba kxE xa?. .

. .well, whoever that person is, he/she doesn't have the right to make me feel this way. .sino ba xa?. .wala talaga xang right. .para tuloy lumalala ang buhay ko. .wala nang nangyayaring matino. .nu ba yan. .anyway, it won't be called life unless you i mean I experience such troubles. .but i admit, it's destroying me. . . . . .destroying me sLowly. .

. .haha. .and2 kami sa cOm lab!!. .com eD subjecT. .

. .haha. .yan. .supposed to be, gumagawa ng website as a school activity. .peo anu??...haha. .nag iinternet. .synonym n yta ng "com-eD" ang word na "vaCant" eh. .haha. .wala kayang ginagawa. .peo to tell you the truth, di ko pa tapos assignment sa tecH. .sama ko nao. .it was my first time to post a blog containing consecutive tagalog sentences. .very informal right?. .till here. .mahuhuli na kami ni siR. .haha. .la pang nauumpisahan sa tech. .nag blog lang for a proof na walang ginagawa. .hehe. .=')

. .ahhw. .nakakatamad. .

. .weeee. . nakakatamad naman. .it's really boring out here..no one to talk to. .no one to laugh with. .huhu. .i miss school. .hehe. .anyway, mamaya lang, aalis na naman ako. .balik to my normal life in tumauini. .hehe. .normal life in rShS. .wooOhhh. . .balik na naman sa napakaraming ginagawa. .everyday assignments and quizzes. .that's what my life is. .hehe. .that's why ang saya pag weekdays na walang ginagawa. .chance na un for leisure kahit minsan lang. .hehe. .booOOoOring talaga d2 sa haus. . walang magawa. .wala namang maka chat dhl offline lahat ng friends. .huhu. .what can i do kaya??. .text??. .no, boring. .re-write?? no, nakakabato. .huhu. .net nalang!!. .hehe. .anyway, a while ago, i was surprised to receive a text message from a former 4th year friend (first year college na ngaun). .hehe. .la lang. .share ko lang. .super boredom na talaga i2. .just wanna say gOodluck sakin, kay leah at kay jean sa debate. .hehe. .good luck naman sakin, kay cha, kay wally, kay rOn, kay roza, kay larry, kay jossa, at kay alice sa brodcasting sa fiLipino. .hehe. .gud luck naman sakin, kay trish, kay cha, kay gem, kay beloy, kay pat at kay geh sa brodcasting sa english. .hehe. .we can do it. .it's a part of a project on both subjects. .kaya kelangan galingan natin. .hehe. .there's no way we're going to fail this time. .totally noOoOhh!. .hehe

. .debate (how are we going to win?)

. .a part of our project in english is a debate. .and my question is, how are we going to win?. .the topic that we have picked (it's by picking on a fish bowl) is about gender sensitivity "against". .to be honest, even I, i am "pro" gender sensitivity. .but, we still have the chance to win. .it depends on who will be our oponent. .lucky us, we didn't pick the group of michelle and larry. .if in case that we have picked them, we are so dead. .especially me, i was chosen as our group's team captain. .but now, my groupmates lea and jean have found articles against gender sensitivity. .and i'll still be hoping that we could defeat isah's group, though. .well, as of now, my groupmates and i, of course, are practicing the foreign language. .it will be an english deabate. .whenever we see each other, we pretend that we can't understand the local language. .sounds harsh. .heheh. .(but believe me, it's fun!). .well, above all, we'll just do our best to win and if ever that we won't, it's fine. .at least we did our best, we had fun while doing the research and practicing the foreign language!. .hehe. .='). .after all, bonding and fun will be the price for this exciting and academic dabate! (well, i myself loves to watch debates!)

. .another problem. .

. .myyyy. .another problem is here. .grabeh. .i almost forgot. .our research paper. .kelangan na nga pala naming mag conduct ng metho. .and i mean it. .i am determined to do the research this time..di ko hahayaan na hilain ako ng study namin pababa. .i'll take it seriously this time. .well, nadala na ako nung first year, i almost failed one subject because of our paper. .i won't let history repeat itself this time. .hehe. .maybe anyday this coming week, gagawa na kami ng ointment. .mahirap nang magrush. .hehe. .isang problem pa, yung mga so namin, hehe. .we need 15 dogs of the same size, weight, age, and breed. .huhu. .where the world are we going to find those??. .hehe. .anyway, AjA!!. .kaya namin i2. .tatlo naman kami sa group, and im xure, we'll find a way. .

. .the repoRt thing. .

. .this day is simplY. .hmn. .bOOooooOoooring. .walang magawa. .except for the preparation of our group report on monday. .that is about the "layunin ng relihiyong sikkhismo". .and damn, i don't have any idea on what sikkhism is. .to be honest, it was my first time to hear that religion when ma'am dona announced it. .anyway, what's the use of the internet, right?. .hehe. .almost everyone relies on it every time we have those kinds of serious activities . .and im a bit excited about our report. .i dont even know who our group leader is. .what is left in my mind are my groupmates like, wally, ron and, oh. .i alredy forgot the others. .anyway,i myself, will be preparing for the report. .

. .why do people get hurt? ='(

. .this was one thing that always linger in my mind. .before i sleep. .the moment i wake up. .and almost every free vacant time. .bakit nga ba. .well, one reason may be love. .not love. .maybe the concept of being in love. .loving someone so much, but that one person doesn't even care.. (does it make sense?!) . .well, it's kinda true. .

. .ranking. .='(

. .it's ranking day. .and i was surprised with my rank. .i didn't expect that i'll be higher than my desired rank. .it feels happy, of course. .but, when i informed my parents about it, it seems like they don't even care. .i mean..hellow. .we are 48 in a class. .and it's in the first section. .well. .anyway, im glad with my place now. .but, the world doesn't seem to understand me. .for them, im just nothing. .simply nothing. .but someday, i'll prove to them who am i really in this world. .and make them realize that, im not regular. .im not normal. .

enough about the ranking thing. .

. .well, this day was like a rainy day. .rainy in emotions, rainy in the mixed emotions that i feel, and rainy in the world that i dont really know if even exist. .RAIN. .a very important person is hidden under that psuedonym. .and behind that, are deep and dark secrets about what and who he is in my life. . well ask me, who is he in my life??. .i'll simply tell you, he's one of the reasons why i exist. .it's as simple as that. .but in his life, im just a friend. .just an ordinary person behind him. .

something mooOoore. .

. .hmn, this day many cried. .tears of joy, tears of happiness, but the tear that flooded the room was the tear of pain. .pain of losing their past places in the roOm. .especially the ranking. .many went up, many retained their spots. .but, still, mOre went down and left their places behind. .like our former top 1, she is now the top 2. .and the former top 2, he was now our top 1. .see. .

. .this is just a proof that life is about change. sometimes its beautiful, sometimes its not, but most of the time, it's both. .=')

. .first day. .

. .lucky first day. .yep. .this was my first day. .first day with my new blog life. .veri memorabLe. .